Thursday, June 16, 2011

Facebook and Vaguebook

I am really enjoying things on facebook right now, too, finding others raised in foster care. I have felt so alone for so many years, strangled in my own mind, ruminating over my childhood. Now, when I get to read about another real person's experience, I feel like I might actually be from this planet instead of some oddball who doesn't belong. When I get a chance to help somebody else feel better, it does worlds of good for me. Maybe I'm not so pathetic and weak if I can do some good in my lifetime. When somebody acknowledges the things I say or clicks "Like" on them, I feel like a dog that got a pat on the head. I needed that. Very much. Especially after the shutdown I've had when I shared my life stories before.
I've also gotten hurt and angry, when I would share something that made me vulnerable, and somebody would post something that seemed to be ABOUT me or what I said, and wouldn't talk WITH me about it. I call that VagueBooking--posting about somebody rather than with them, not naming them, and using the ambiguity of whether the post was about them to avoid talking with them about it. Vaguebooking widens distance between people, and hurts my feelings. Talking with me about things can't be forced though. I'd rather somebody talked with me because they want to. I guess I'm VagueBlogging right now!! lol Still, good times.

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